“It’s My Party, And I’ll Cry If I Want To”

It’s my birthday…! ๐Ÿคธ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ And I’m breaking the curse!

See, in the past, approximately for the past 3 years I have cried on my birthday. It’s almost become tradition! It began when I turn 21…

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Twenty One

consecuetively, over the past three years I’ve been disappointed by people I held in such high esteem, respect and regard as they neglected to acknowledge such a special day, for one reason or another. I would have these waterwork shows after framily would go above and beyond celebrating my birthday and receiving overwhelming amounts of love from those who weren’t physically present.

Personally, I think of birthdays as a time to cherish loved ones and appreciate their existence in sharing their life with those who have helped reached each celebratory year. As, I do believe, each year is a monumental moment. Our days are numbered, never promised. Even more of a reason to show gratitude and cherish the days that we do have with the people we love.

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Twenty Two

By. now, we know that I just love to love on people. I want to be there for those who share a special place in my heart, no matter what. The thing that I wonder, do those same people extend the same invitation to me.

Over the last year, I’ve been able to grow tremendously by the grace of God and plenty of mistakes turned life lessons. I’ve been able to grow wiser from the reflection on previous events, especially the monumental highlights. I previously believed you could appreciate those who are intentionally loving you, while still caring for those who “unintentionally” hurt you. I’m wrong.

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Twenty Three

Today, I feel as though I may have been unintentionally hurting those that willingly celebrate me by being so consumed from the hurt of those who didn’t. I was upset at the people who I cared deeply for, but what about all the people that were taking the time out to love and acknowledge me? I want you to think of all the people who have let you down, then think of two people who’ve always been there for every one individual that choose otherwise in your life.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I plan to still be a friend, sister, cousin or whatever the case may be to these people, but I need to know who’s going to save me when I need saving? Who’s going to celebrate, when it’s time to party? Who going to pray with me, when I need prayer?

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Now ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿฝ

I think this year I’m going to be a little more selfish with self. No more tears over those who only remember me in their times of need. This year the toast is for everyone who’s always surrounded me for the highlights, and especially the lowlights. It’s time to start loving on the people who love you all the time and make sure your not treating them like the ones who’ve disappointed you in the past.

Over the last week I’ve received so much love and support from family and friends. It was humbling to know so many special people share a place for me in their heart! I want to show them my appreciation by basking in the love their giving and returning it, at the same time.

Proverbs 17:17

17 โ€œA friend loves at all times,ย and a brother is born for adversity.โ€

Proverbs 18:24

24 One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Colossians 3: 12 – 14

12 Therefore, as Godโ€™s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.
13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

Let’s grow together! Leave your experiences in the comments!

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One thought on ““It’s My Party, And I’ll Cry If I Want To”

  1. Amen!!!! I feel so strongly about this topic because I’m the same way. I don’t even like sharing my struggles because I know it’s a possibility that the people I care about won’t be there to help me through. No more being afraid, more time appreciating the people who are there.

    Happy Birthday ๐Ÿ˜˜

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